Is it an excuse?

I just returned home from dropping off my son at school and I received a message from Mike through a dating site we met on. Anyhow he was apologizing for last night. He said they ended up in a car wreck and they got home after 12:30am. He wanted to make it known that he hoped I didn't think he stood me up because he really wanted to see me. He said his phone was lost in the wreck somewhere and that he is going to try and find it today.

Maybe I'm a bitch for not being more understanding but I never listen to my gut feeling. My gut feeling always is the EXACT opposite. So like if I woke up thinking "wow, it's going to be sunny and beautiful today" it will rain hours later. Today my gut feeling says "No he isn't seeing someone else. I'm sure he has a legitimate excuse. I know he's interested in me and not making me the back up girl". Well I am taking no notice of the gut feeling and I am taking the exact opposite stance. I wrote him back saying I am glad to hear he is alright but that this really isn't working out for me. I told him it just feels like he isn't making an effort to see me (not including last night even though it could have very well been an excuse). I told him I am not high maintenance but just having a relationship built on text messages isn't enough for me. We'll see what he says.

I am proud that I was able to take a stand and not allow myself to be used or be a doormat. Even though he seemed like the perfect match for me and I am extremely lonely and desperately want a good man in my life, I still value myself enough to not "settle".

Oh yea, this was my daily kiss fortune on Facebook yesterday.

Your daily kiss fortune: Tell them what you really think. Otherwise, nothing will change. --- Speaking honestly right now will save you much sadness and will set the course for you to move through life with strength.