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Last night Mike and I met up for dinner. I am so glad we did because I was starting to forget what his smile looked like and his face.

He smelled good like I remembered. In fact he smelled so good that when I got home and lounged on the couch watching "Who's Wedding is It Anyways" with my sister; I could smell him on me. His smell lingered on my hands and on my sweatshirt for hours.

We had a nice dinner and great conversation. I would catch myself getting lost in his eyes. I know it's so darn cliche, but it's true. His eyes are the most beautiful blue-gray color. Reminds me of Monterey skies.

I learned a little more about him last night. I am really liking this part of getting to know him. I know there is no pressure sexually and that is a great relief on my mind. I can actually enjoy time with him without the fear of him wanting to pounce me at the first opportunity.

We are planning to get together one night this weekend if I can find a sitter for my son. I can't wait to see him again.

Mike and I have not seen each other since our coffee date a week ago but we have been keeping in touch via text message. I wake every morning to find a text message waiting for me from him in which he usually says "Good morning sweetie". I love that. I love that he makes a priority to say hello to me each and every day. I love that he is thinking about me and he isn't afraid to let me know he is.

I am most excited for tomorrow night. It is our first actual date. of course we haven't decided what to do yet. I was hoping he would be a bit more suggestive but he says he doesn't care what we do. With that being said, we'll probably just make it a dinner date.

I can't wait to see him. A week from last seeking his face is hard. I feel I am already forgetting his face and his voice. I know I can easily call him and it is kinda weird that we do not talk on the phone much but I think all of that awkwardness will fade after tomorrow night. Once I know that this dating thing is really happening, it will be a lot easier for me to get to know him.

I guess I am still a tad bit hesitant because so far he is more that I could ever have imagined. You always have the ideal person in your head and because they are so ideal, they do not really exist. Mike is that man and so it terrifies me. If Mike ends up being my soul mate then I will definitely be the first to tell you that God DOES answer prayers regarding relationships. :)

Mike and I met for our first date tonight which was just coffee. We had an amazing connection and comfort level. About an hour into the conversation we held hands and locked hands for the next 1 1/2 hours. His eyes are the most amazing shade of blue and he has a smile that can make one's heart melt.

The date was awesome! I had a wonderful evening with him. At the end of the date he asked if he made it to date #2 and I told him yes he did. We are planning date #2 but we're not sure yet what to do. We kissed goodbye but it was short and sweet. I loved being hugged by him. He held me snugly and I felt safe.

He has already said he wants to see where this goes and I feel the same way. I haven't had a connection like this in some time. So we shall see about all this.

I love Leos!

Wow, here I am a whole month later with no dating interests to talk about. I took a break after Danny and didn't obsess with checking my yahoo account or plenty of fish account everyday. In fact I even got an email from Okcupid reminding me they have noticed that I had not logged in for the past 2 weeks. I have been busy with some side income online businesses and I was just to absorbed in that to care about men. Finances are more important to me right now.

Anyhow 2 days ago I decide to check out Yahoo personals and I see that I had 2 messages. One was from a man named Michael. I quickly browse through his photos and I am wowed by him. Instant attraction!

My next step is scrolling down to see if he wants kids, what religion he is and then...bam...his astrological sign. He is a LEO! Now, I really don't believe in astrology at all. Especially since I am a Christian and I think that stuff is all pure garbage but I found this site a little over a month ago that explains in details the personalities of signs and I felt they nailed me as a Gemini and then I shared the site with my sister and she felt it nailed her as well. Then she shared it with her 2 best friends and they both felt it nailed them as well. lol

Anyhow I am a Gemini and my Match Made in Heaven is with a Leo. I have never met Leos. I am strongly attracted to Libras. I am not kidding. The only men I have been really attracted to were all libras and the ones I dated or had relationships with were libras. Men that I never felt a connection with were never leos or libras. They were other signs.

Anyhow, Michael is a leo and I am really excited to see how this goes. Yesterday we started communicating and I like what I know about him already. :) As always, I lean with caution.

Stupid...stupid...stupid. Grrrr! I can be so stupid sometimes. I say don't get your hopes up over and over in my head and then I still manage to. I was really looking forward to this date. I asked friends advice on makeup looks and I shopped for a new top. All day I was counting down the hours until we would meet.

Danny text messaged me at 6:00pm when his shift was suppose to end and told me he was sorry but he couldn't meet up tonight. His shift was extended by 5 hours more. We exchanged text messages over the next 2 hours when his last message at 8pm to me was "Hey I'm off!", which was a 3 hour change of plans now. But that was it. He was off but he didn't say, maybe we can still meet up. Nothing. I'm disappointed. I wish he had better communication and at least told me something else like he was too tired now etc. Even last night he told me he was going to bed. I got nothing tonight.

I'm not gonna flip out or write him off. Life happens. I understand that he had to work late. So be it.

3 days ago I got suckered into renewing my yahoo personals membership over a wink message I had received. The man (Jay) lives in Sacramento which is still quite a distance from me. But he was cute and had a wonderful smile. So I signed up and we played email tag for a day. Then the next day it lead to cell phone texting. (He doesn't have a computer at home). Yes, I am dead serious. This was already going to put a damper on any sort of relationship.
by the third day it had escalated to text messaging and picture sending. On the fourth day, today, it was completely cold. He send me a message at 1 am saying "Goodnight. Maybe we we'll cross paths one day". What the heck kind of message is that. This guy is a weenie! Grow some why don't you. Be more aggressive with me dammit!

In all seriousness I am ok with letting that fish slip away BECAUSE today I logged into Yahoo personals to check on my now newly paid membership and saw I had received a message. It was from a man's profile I had browsed last night. I thought he was adorable. Truly I did, but I didn't contact him because I saw that he was looking for an athletic female. I am not athletic framed. I'm still working on it but not there yet. So I messaged him back and we played cell texting all night. At least he was a bit more aggressive by asking if I wanted to meet tonight. I told him I was unable to since my parents are visiting but I asked about Saturday evening. He said sure. So, we have a date Saturday night (tonight).

You know the usual. I hate to get excited because I am always let down. I can't help but get a little giddy when I think about him (Danny). He's adorable. Just the type I love! He's 30 yrs old, 6'0", athletic, hazel eyes, brown hair. He's compassionate about people and he works in the medical field.

I don't believe in astrological signs and all that crap but it seems that I am majorly attracted to Libras. He is a Libra.

Also 2 nights ago when I was browsing the yahoo profiles that matched my criteria I recognized a photo. It was my ex husband. Guess he's single now for his 3rd time in 3 years.

I've made up my mind and decided not to be age bias, I am now open to dating men under my 26 yr old cuttoff. I could be missing out on a fantastic relationship and not even know it. I spoke with a 36 yr old woman tonight at a friend's party and she is currently dating a 26 yr old. She said something that made me rethink the age thing. So I now open the doors to the younger men. Flock on in!

OK Drew is crazy. It's official. He tried to contact me on yahoo earlier this afternoon and then he sent me 3 emails today. Two more emails after I gave in and replied to an earlier one today telling him that yes I was upset with him for deceiving me and that I was done with a friendship or any sort of relationship. His 3rd email to me was through the dating site in which he had created a new profile and what's this.....he lied about his age?!?! *shocked* Ok so not only did he lie about what he looked like but he lied about his age! His following email messages were quite disturbing. he was pleading for me to not give up on him and that he could be the man I desire. He also said he feels he deserves a second chance. I think scariest part was when he said "I'm not ready to let go of you. I don't want to lose you".

It was all so pathetic and sad really. Sad that he is pleading to me like we had some sort of long history together. We spoke for 2 days! I made no commitment to him nor did I give him hope that we would be a couple. I told him one day and a time we would build our friendship.

On a complete other note I received an IM from Casey. Casey was a one night stand that happened about 3 years ago. He contacts me every few months on yahoo and of course he beats around the bush about hooking up again. And today's conversation was no different. The only thing that was kinda nice hearing from him was when I mentioned I was losing weight and had dropped 23 pounds he asked why was I dropping weight. He said he remembered me being cute! *sigh* Casey, Casey, Casey. He was so hot! I'll never forget him. It's too bad that he is a ladies man.

That was short lived. It turns out today after writing me a poem he emailed me, he admitted he had not been honest in posting an actual face shot of him. The photo he posted was of a friend that he had permission to use. I am hurt and deceived. Most importantly I feel stupid. So stupid for letting down my guard when I shouldn't have. I'm so stupid! I am really hating this entire online dating thing. I am so close to just deleting all my profiles and saying screw it all! The crazy thing is he is a therapist. A fricken therapist!!! What kind of therapist thinks this is ok?!?

He's gonna do it to me. Drew is going to make me fall for him. He's not only tall, handsome with a gorgeous smile but he loves kids (works with them too), is a hopeless romantic, intelligent, wants a family and likes hanging out with family as well, loves the beach and wants to live by one some day.

He wrote me a very long and thoughtful message tonight and everything he said in it just attracts me more to him. I don't want to get my hopes high. I really really don't.

From previous online dating, I have learned to keep my guard up and to believe that all men will say what they think I want to hear. They can be anyone and anything.

I want to let down my guard about Drew. We briefly spoke in IM this evening since it is midnight his time now but he did ask me if it bothered him if he spoke to other women on the site. I have no right to say it bothers me so of course I told him no. But I admit with him asking that, a percentage of belief that he could be someone really special in my life has gone down a bit. I want to believe he is sincere about getting to know me. Uggggh!