4 posts tagged “drew”

OK Drew is crazy. It's official. He tried to contact me on yahoo earlier this afternoon and then he sent me 3 emails today. Two more emails after I gave in and replied to an earlier one today telling him that yes I was upset with him for deceiving me and that I was done with a friendship or any sort of relationship. His 3rd email to me was through the dating site in which he had created a new profile and what's this.....he lied about his age?!?! *shocked* Ok so not only did he lie about what he looked like but he lied about his age! His following email messages were quite disturbing. he was pleading for me to not give up on him and that he could be the man I desire. He also said he feels he deserves a second chance. I think scariest part was when he said "I'm not ready to let go of you. I don't want to lose you".

It was all so pathetic and sad really. Sad that he is pleading to me like we had some sort of long history together. We spoke for 2 days! I made no commitment to him nor did I give him hope that we would be a couple. I told him one day and a time we would build our friendship.

On a complete other note I received an IM from Casey. Casey was a one night stand that happened about 3 years ago. He contacts me every few months on yahoo and of course he beats around the bush about hooking up again. And today's conversation was no different. The only thing that was kinda nice hearing from him was when I mentioned I was losing weight and had dropped 23 pounds he asked why was I dropping weight. He said he remembered me being cute! *sigh* Casey, Casey, Casey. He was so hot! I'll never forget him. It's too bad that he is a ladies man.

That was short lived. It turns out today after writing me a poem he emailed me, he admitted he had not been honest in posting an actual face shot of him. The photo he posted was of a friend that he had permission to use. I am hurt and deceived. Most importantly I feel stupid. So stupid for letting down my guard when I shouldn't have. I'm so stupid! I am really hating this entire online dating thing. I am so close to just deleting all my profiles and saying screw it all! The crazy thing is he is a therapist. A fricken therapist!!! What kind of therapist thinks this is ok?!?

He's gonna do it to me. Drew is going to make me fall for him. He's not only tall, handsome with a gorgeous smile but he loves kids (works with them too), is a hopeless romantic, intelligent, wants a family and likes hanging out with family as well, loves the beach and wants to live by one some day.

He wrote me a very long and thoughtful message tonight and everything he said in it just attracts me more to him. I don't want to get my hopes high. I really really don't.

From previous online dating, I have learned to keep my guard up and to believe that all men will say what they think I want to hear. They can be anyone and anything.

I want to let down my guard about Drew. We briefly spoke in IM this evening since it is midnight his time now but he did ask me if it bothered him if he spoke to other women on the site. I have no right to say it bothers me so of course I told him no. But I admit with him asking that, a percentage of belief that he could be someone really special in my life has gone down a bit. I want to believe he is sincere about getting to know me. Uggggh!

I debated whether or not to post this. Perhaps I should wait until more comes out of this. I had a 7 hour long conversation via IM with a wonderful man tonight. We seem to have alot in common and it looks like we're quite compatible. I don't like to get my hopes up high. I really hate that. I hate being let down. The minute I start fantasizing about a guy being my new boyfriend, my dream is over before it really begins. So I don't want to get my hopes up.

For once I am the more hesitant one. He has left the ball in my court. we talked about having the door open on a relationship. He assured me the door was open and that it was my decision as to if I wanted to walk through the door and greet him on the other side. He's a hopeless romantic. He loves sappy songs and romance movies.

If he truly is the same person in person I spoke with tonight, I can easily see myself falling for him. He is everything I've been searching for these past 3 yrs. I think that scares me. He is almost EXACTLY the man I have been seeking.

One issue is he lives in another state so we would have a long distance relationship until something was figured out. That could also be a huge road block.

I am leaving this in God's hands. 100% in his hands because I don't know how any of this will work out.