3 posts tagged “erik”

Tonight was my coffee date with Erik. He was attractive, funny, well kept, smart, interesting, kind and pretty open. He reminded me so much of Nicholas Cage.

He talked so much about travel that I am afraid we would feel too differently. It seems he likes the idea of change and I like small changes.  When he spoke of traveling he means travel as in, picking up and moving to some new place. I'm not sure if I can accept that type of traveling right now. I like stability and some predictability. Man, I am beginning to sound like an old maid! It would be amazing to just travel and see new places but that's what travel means to me. To visit new and exotic places but then happily return to my home. I really can't see myself up and moving every 4-5 years and Erik speaks of his future in terms of moving to new places every few years.

But is it too soon for me to write him off because he wants to travel? Probably not. Maybe I will change my mind. maybe I won't. Well, now to see if he bothers to ask me out for a 2nd date.

I had a pretty good Mother's day weekend. We celebrated my nephew's birthday last night and then today we just hung out around the house watching movies. We saw Becoming Jane. Was a pretty good movie and to be honest I never read any of her books. I am curious now, so I may check them out at the library.

I am both anticipating and nervous about my date with Erik tomorrow night. I'm sure it will be fine. He assured me in a message tonight to not be nervous because he is really laid back and open. I need to get more confidence. I just need to trust God with whatever happens.

Please God be with me tomorrow. Help calm my nerves and don't let me sound like an idiot. Please let me cute, confident and cool! lol

I'll be sure to let you know how it goes.

So after Mr.Godfearing abruptly logged off yahoo in the middle of our conversation, I deleted him from my yahoo list. I logged on this evening am just as baffled as before. This was our brief conversation.

Session Start (beautifuldisaster: Mr. Godfearing): Wed May 07 17:56:42 2008
[17:56] Mr. Godfearing: Hello baby! How are you doing? [Offline Message (Wed May 07 17:56:41 2008)]
[17:56] *** "Mr. Godfearing" signed on at Wed May 07 17:56:59 2008.
[17:57] beautifuldisaster: hey
[17:58] beautifuldisaster: how's nigeria?
[17:58] *** "Mr. Godfearing" signed off at Wed May 07 17:58:39 2008.
Session Close (Mr. Godfearing): Wed May 07 18:00:06 2008

I seriously do not understand this man at all. Meh, screw him, right?

On to the latest news. There are 2 guys I am talking to and I am happy to report they are local. They are Chris and Erik. To be honest I am not feeling Chris as much as I am Erik. Maybe it's because with Chris, I really am not making a good effort to get to know him. He seems nice and all but rather difficult to get a solid conversation going with. He sorta asks the same questions I just discussed in a previous message. So it feels like I have to be the one to fight to keep the conversation going. I don't like that. It's awkward and uncomfortable.

Also, Chris does have 2 little girls both under the age of 4 but was never married. At least his myspace (Yes I met him on myspace) only says single and not divorced. And if he wasn't married, it makes me wonder how people can just go around having kids while not showing a true commitment, ie marriage.

Chris is cute and a Christian but I'm not sure how deep into his faith he is. He hasn't really discussed it much.

Now Erik on the other hand, is a delight to talk with. He seems to write sincere replies with an effort to try and get to know me. He's not a California native so that's pretty cool. I'm starting to think Californian men suck. Erik has been here in Cali for 1 year. he's divorced with no kids and is 1 year older than me. Best part is he is a Christian and also looking for a Christian woman. He has green eyes, he's tan, with brown hair and a goatee. He's about 2 inches taller than me with an athletic build.

Erik is easy to talk to and we have set a date for our first meeting on Monday. *smiles* I can't believe it has been 9 months since someone peeked my interest of even wanting to meet up. I hate getting my hopes up. As usual, I am almost always disappointed.

Erik is easy to talk to so I bet we feel comfortable during coffee. :)